I Didn’t Know I Was Already Flying

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Dear reader,

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The tenth question of the Proust Questionnaire was “10. Which talent would you most like to have?”. For those of you who missed the story, you can find it here, should you be interested.

My answer was “Flying! I am assuming it could be a fantasy?”

Interestingly, while I was enjoying my Body Balance class today, I had an epiphany: “Hold on, Myriam; you’re already flying!”

This class is a beautiful mixture of three disciplines: Yoga, Thai-Chi, and Pilates — in other words, equilibrium is a keyword. One of the movements is going by the name of “the airplane”!

We are supposed to be standing on one leg with our body parallel to the ground and our arms open on the sides. I genuinely feel like flying whenever I lose myself in the movement.

Ice on the cake: it is not even the only movement granting this enchanting sensation of flying and guess what? I didn’t realize I was already living my dream up to today!

Those are old pictures Summer/Autumn 2019 most probably (when I was still a beginner, relatively, and that I needed to be wholeheartedly focused!):

You need to understand that I used to hate this class before 2019. I couldn’t stand stillness. From 2010 to early 2019, I used to exclusively attend cardio classes, where I could be wild and let the warrior in me express herself!

In January 2019, the unexpected for an unconscious person like the former me occurred: an offset of my left patella! I was not yet aware of my irresponsible exercising behavior that was 100% focused on cardio training.

I felt devastated. I was still healing from my narcissistic abuse that almost killed me three months earlier so that I could gain some strength before starting the process of re-writing my invasive subconscious program. Exercising was one of my foremost healing resources.

I stopped for a moment and reflected on it. What if this was the universe’s new sign telling me I was ready for the real homework? Did you guess what I did? Bingo! I listened to the sign!

After some introspection and research to know what was wrong with my exercising style — that’s how I discovered the epigenetics fabulous new science, by the way, I did a visualization exercise where I was an old lady perfectly healthy and still exercising!

Having this mental picture implanted in my heart, I started accepting the process, namely adding the other classes of the physical balance that I used to hate to the equation.

Now, if you randomly visited my Body Balance class, I guarantee you would be witnessing a peaceful smile on my face and an ecstasy state — okay, maybe except when it comes to the Pilates, to be very frank!

You would rather see me struggle with pain but dedicated to finishing the exercise nonetheless!

Last thoughts

How possibly could I transform a hatred emotion towards the calmness attribute of the Body Balance class into a euphoria sensation? Through a simple psychological effective tool, I like to call the “positive conditioning”. It is not the same concept as the Operant conditioning, in which the change is fueled by a punctual event.

Be mindful of the fact this positive conditioning has nothing to do with the positive affirmations which are fooling you into mapping what does not exist yet. Those can be very dangerous. Should you be interested, I explored the topic here.

In the positive conditioning, you are envisioning a lasting outcome you desire — in my case: being healthy and able to exercise till the last day of my physical existence — and consciously choosing to commit to the process, which would make the result reachable.

During the adventure, self-awareness, bravery, and a warrior spirit are keywords!